2007's doors close, and 2008 opens to us

What we are moving away from carried all of life's lessons if you could slow the motions enough to soak it in. We had laughter and tears mixed and confused. We had some actor skills developed so he wouldn't see our very raw pain of heart matched his own. We had moments we could barely stay in our own skin. We experienced the total sadness that death can bring, and confusingly enough we all witnessed the beauty of it's release from the pain and worry our loved man was experiencing. We also experienced a better deeper love of one another and understanding of our various ways to cope through it all as it unraveled, as we unraveled, too. The woman and I call it "having a moment". She frets and worries that one day I'll get mad at her as we often did in the old days with each other, I smile or laugh, it's not going to happen, she is one of my hero's, she is in my heart now, with depth. We've been through all of those days starting with her call as she followed the ambulance that morning. That is some of what will be closing behind the 2007 door., just as it was starting to close behind the 2002 door, the 1990 door, and the 1979 door. There are so many doors, and each carries a chapter in our The Life's Book . A New year, this being 2008 some think is a fresh start, it's each persons ground zero to do better with a calendar year, So many have new year resolutions, they want a new job, better vehicle, better house, weightlosses (one sickness can take it all off, so don't sweat it) and some of us are happy to have a family in relatively good health, we live the 365/366 slot year: day by day and religious or slightly agnostic alike can see the beauty in each days rising and our cycle as long as we're permitted to re-unite at the end of day with our family. Now for a person who has lost many you can get a New Year's case of being anxious/worried wondering what's behind door number 2008....the lady or the tiger, this would be a natural thought process, now take it one more step....when you lost very many people who played important roles in your life, you can evolve into a creature who enjoys nothing more than the here and now. 2008 will bring much enjoyment of the here and now, enjoying the interval, what's important each work night, all of us coming home, all of going to bed wherever we belong, all of us waking up the next morning, all of us enjoying some laughs or stories with each other, our life and therefore living values are better and higher due to the losses encountered in other years. Could I drink out 2007, oh yes I could, Will I, probably not. Will I embrace 2008, yes as long as we keep making it home, sleeping, and waking up. I will embrace everyday until the life cycle brings the next round of horseshit to my door, something that is unfortunately guaranteed to happen. So in closing this days blog thoughts I offer you a favorite from My Father used to use as a toast, as a prayer at Easter also a time of rebirth's: May you enjoy good health, happiness, a little bit of prosperity! With hope and love, Sunshine