Sunday, May 31, 2020

One mans lapse in judgement, and the officers with him, depraved indifference, not good.

"When was the last time, you ever saw the sunrise?" This morning.

From the heart of an American girl who has seen a lot:

A work in progress she's always been, spots of injustice across the land, but my eyes and my heart will always believe, that her good far outweighs her bad.

So many good souls who do help all in plight, dimmed by some men who did not know their right, depraved indifference shown within our sights.

And so the 5/6ths of the land who know right from wrong, must continue to stand, together, for progress in their beloved land.

We cannot slip backwards from all we've become, we must all firmly believe that the bad will be outweighed by the good!


I actually googled this morning to read the exact words on the Statue of Liberty, made my eyes tear up knowing my Polish side landed in Ellis Island, as did my Irish side, 2 sets of Grand parents who would become firends through the love of their American born children. 

There are many good police officers in the world, much like many fine upstanding nurses, firefighter, paramedics, teachers, priests, and yet constantly some rotten apple or someone who needed mental health care rears their ugly head, and sets us all ass backwards because they couldn't use logic, or compassion in there job performance, they cracked, did an ungodly act, and then when the shit hits the fan we all get judged, like we felt the same way, when in fact we dot not, seeing this shit like stream on television has been horrifying to some one who believes we ARE ALL EQUAL, NO ONE IS ABOVE THE LAW, how dare you deprive a man of breathing when you already had him in cuffs?  Depraved indifference, Psychotic lapse whatever, you should be held accountable, and so should the 3 who did not stop you, Serve and Protect, all.

Riots start, Protests, Looting, we all end up getting judged for someone else's lapse in judgement.

Priest Pedophiles continue to get transferred, when in fact they should be strung up to the nearest tree, the damage they've done is horrible.  Yet many of them were abused that become abusers.

Police should be trusted, and I believe should undergo mental evaluations yearly, especially those who experienced life changes, such as divorce or loss, as it might influence who they are under stress.

America, I love the best in you, I believe like water you can rise above, and that the good will always outweigh the bad.

A new year of 1/1/2020

"When was the last time, you ever saw the sunrise?" Still trying to see one each day, a girl said.

So as you celebrated on 12/31/2019 to see a fresh new year in, resolutions made or thought of, January 1st, 2020 comes in, you embrace her, a fresh start resolved on.

It was the year another great plague would strike, but you didn't know it yet, and all the time you embraced the new beginning.

In January you first heard of something strange occurring in China, and by March of 2020 it was here in the states, and by March 13th they were closing the schools in Chicago.

March 21st lead to an Illinois State ordered shutdown, only essential workers would continue going out into the threat everyday, the rest of us working from home, still not without threat of grocery stores, gas stations, trips up to work to process things as needed, running into people who could not get the drift to wear a mask.

Across the lands globally travel had been halted, now the Covid 19 was everywhere China apparent origination, but Italy, France, England, South Korea mentioned, and probably North Korea although new black outs there keep everything close to the cuff, and all across the United States, hospitals overwhelmed, lack of machinery, lack of protections, and yet this particular plague called a corona virus now zoned in on as Covid 19, have always wondered if there was a Covid 18, 17, 16, blast off.

I can't even describe the sorrow and grief felt by so many, no goodbyes to their family members, mass graves for so many, some unfortunate departed humans kept in trucks without refrigeration until the funeral homes were caught and refrigeration was arranged for.

Congested cities, congested Senior Homes, people with other medical conditions, smokers like myself with very poor odds of surviving, although at times I wonder if all the crap on my lungs didn't help me block it from finding the receptors it so desperately tries to find, all of these were hard hit areas. "wear sadness on my shoulder, like a worn out overcoat". (Emerson Lake & Palmer-Just take a Pebble)

Now it is May 31, 2020.  Half a year is passed, and a horrific number of people sickened by the Covid 19, and way too many departed souls, hospitals still jammed packed with newbys, First they said it didn't usually present in chicldren, but when it does it shuts down their organs by causing poly-blood clots, much like poly-cystic disease that fills the kidneys with cysts until they can no longer function.

The stay at home order for Illinois is lifted, monday I head back to the work office, and the 5 lovely gents I WORK WITH, some of whom can't remember to keep their mask on, this I know due to my tuesday and thrusday processing mornings, I've already emailed them to cease shoving papers in my face to scanned, and to start using my in basket with an instruction note on it, it is not the same world, and I will be strong in keeping myself as safe as I can, "as the times they are a'changing" (Bobby Dylan)

I pray for my families, and my special loves, that we all keep on doing the right things, and avoid the Covid Beast of all Beasts.